Thursday, March 1, 2012

here's the thing-

i'm indecisive.

everyone knows this, but the one who mostly know this is my hairdresser.
i've gone from blonde to black to brown to red to highlights to low lights to everything in-between.

other than my hair, i've been on a path to "discovering myself" for the past five years. most people would call this adolescence - but i've always felt the presence of the unknown at a deeper level. i legitimately do not know who i am, where i stand or what i want to do with my life.

i like art,
i like music,
i like people,
i like clothing,
i like books,
i like the internet,
i like cats,
i like writing.

i'm a sophomore in college and i've changed my major five times. yes, five.

ironically enough, the same amount as my hair color.
and i am looking for change. typical.

i want to know
i want to seek
and i will find.

i want to know why people tick the way they do.
i want to know why we were put here.

and i want to create something beautiful,
something lasting.
i want to bring happiness to someone other than myself.

i believe life is a process of giving and taking.

we give in order to receive
we give in order to please
we give in order to take
something away from it




i may not know who i am,
but i know that whatever future career path i hold
will be in the creation of something beautiful

whether it be art,
or words.

i want to find a calling - a passion.
and i'm on the way.

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